writing on a blank wall

stillness chills the grief
but cannot bend the marrow
flowers will still bloom
when you stare out of your window
the massive crocusses sway
akin to the hips of a buxom dancer in a bar
a flower child of bygone era 
now rotting in secret of her mind clatter
when did the colors fade
when did you invade
perhaps, I made a mistake,
perhaps I have forgotten
another day, another place
might set an even pace

I will find my empty hand,
 filled with jagged time, 
(an impossibility you say;
no, not for me, not for me) 

cloud reader

I fall to save my soul

from the burning coals

when cinders touch me

ice reaches me

I merge into the clouds

escaping from a vast wasteland

angels of sorrow surround me

as always I shed dry tears

"when tears fall, fear rushes out

I float so light in that dim light,
where everything looks black and white"

conversing with the fire

when I heard
time to say goodbye
crimson tears flowed freely
no, you cannot see those
they are flowing in the inside
that crunch in my heart
you cannot hear
I don't expect you too
I am compelled to forget
but I know I cannot
when the crimson tears turn clear
I will know I am cleansed

I will burn with the cinders
while you watch from afar
that kindling in your hand
will remind you of your doing
"time to say goodbye"
I whisper to the fire

strings

The Meal, 1891, by Paul Gauguin 

I offer that sacred bowl
to the goddess
I let the rituals take over my senses
I might not understand its significance
yet I cut fruits into strings
I do not wish demons to visit
to taste the elaborated food
I never did comprehend their intentions
or the way they followed the flags of peace
only to cause devastation

demons are indigenous, 
goddess is usurper;
reaching the summit, only to fall
let us drink from that bowl
before we sell our very soul

winter has only just begun

you float in and out
more out than in
I try to hold the wild images
chasing images merge into the walls
that sense of lost intangibles
submerges into depression
shadows of your translucent skin
is imprinted everywhere
I want to walk away
from the interloper
(which is nothing but conjured images)
mortality of my feelings is at its tether
destiny brought us together
destiny will part us
I can still hear you saying,
"it is our pleasure"
but I cannot hold it any longer
I will let it slip through my fingers

"if you so desire, it is your turn to thaw me"

trellis tampers nature

water vibrates with sky
I watch the emerging stream
my mind aligns it with the trees
contrast of the blooms winks at you
I see clear dots of nature 
in the cobalt blue of your eyes

you wink at me, 
I feel the hook of yours 
pull me into you

"the sky, that stream, the trees 
take me away from daily grind, 
and I melt like ice onto you"

words of music glued to me

I am wearing the words of music
notes reverberate in my mind
screen doors watch silently
I throw the wilted flowers
on the earthy ground
someone will come and pick up those
scents of elusive nostalgia will assail him
giving rise to a storm.
that storm which you left behind
along with that felted quilt
I lie on it once in a whilebut it has no warmth
you took that with you
leaving the notes of music
wrapped in my body for eternity