hypothesis

you say i have both your attention, your heart
but not appreciative enough about that.

when have i said otherwise, how can you surmise
all that I did say? gut wrenching feelings i disguise

from you, never letting you know, hurting inside.
with a smile on my lips, no pain showing outside

i return to you again and again, without rhyme
or reason. loving you mindlessly is no crime

why do i then feel so sad? why does the pain
is such that i feel numb? my thoughts drained,

my mind empty, my heart so full, spark of hope
still alive. What will i do, how will i cope?

when you go away again, never to look
back. i must seek some answers in life’s book.

i wrote it sometime back when i was in very black mood but haven't got around polishing/editing it. posting it here in the original form i wrote. please feel free to critique....

mind games

sinking deeper
she pulls me down
with burden of thoughts
i simply drown



'she' is the mind here...

Did I dream it?

I had this dream. It was so vivid that for a while I thought it was real when I woke up. I looked out for him. How could he be there when he was so far away? But my mind refused to believe that he hadn't been there. He had held me. I had felt his touch.

Maybe I had been thinking of him. But I knew after all that work and not to forget my medications, I had no thoughts in my mind when I literally fell into my bed. So why did I have that dream or was it that?

When I talked to him later, I did not mention it. He said he had been thinking of me. I asked him when, the time he mentioned coincided with my dream. Being in different time zones, our sleeping and waking hours are different.

The point is how could that be possible? He had been thinking of me, I dreamt about him. He felt so near that I couldn't believe he was not there...

Does it happen?
I do have visions but this...?

phallic symbols--haiku

reaching out to where
soaring into space out there
these phallic symbols?















I think I should mention it here that in India the Lingam is worhipped. It is the phallic symbol. For a country which gave the world, KAMASUTRA, we are a bunch of hypocritical prudes now. Ironic, isn't it?

illusion...haiku

so rugged surface
convoluted and/or denuded
or my mind conjures

gather.com

I have been posting stuff on gather.com All that comes into my mind. Made great friends there. Chk my posts at grounded.

Own a few groups too there. Great interactive place....

Dislocated elbow!

BTW, I have dislocated my right elbow.Plaster cast from shoulder to wrist for three weeks. Hence blogging will be difficult as typing with one hand is very slow!

I will be back.........sometime in first week of August.