Corridor
Linger
Subtle
Why have I started thinking of it again?
I thought I had left all that behind.
Why has it come back?
Subconsciously I fear it.
Yet I am fascinated by it.
It feels so familiar.
Like my best friend.
Who knows me the way I do not even know myself.
I thought I was well past that illogical thought.
Seems not.
Will I get over it again?
Will I push it aside?
Into that unseen corridor of my psyche?
Where it will linger for some time to come.
Give in to it?
With a vengeance yet subtle?
I watch it with enthralling revulsion.
Where the mind covets and yet repels.
Why do I fight?
Why don’t I give in?
So easy to do that.
What holds me back?
Isn’t it better to finish with that than face it again and again?
May be it is I.
It must be that.
I cannot take the painless way out.
I have to traverse the most difficult of path.
Where there is stimulation, adventure and challenge.
Please retreat.
Do not come back.
I will not embrace you now.
Come later when it is inevitable.
For now, I have to live.
Let me wake up...
Until inevitability, goodbye death..
Well, at least I get to be the first to comment. :)
ReplyDeletePowerful thoughts. I wasn't at all sure until the end what it was you were writing about.
Rose
xo
Hi Gautami! I read this several times -- it is deeply profound and very moving! I really liked the conversational and intimate quality in it too. This part too I loved: "I cannot take the painless way out./ I have to traverse the most difficult of path./ Where there is stimulation, adventure and/ challenge." Wow -- this is so beautiful.
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I really enjoyed this. And wow - "enthralling revulsion" speaks volumes! What a wonderful, unusual way to describe a very precise sensation. :)
ReplyDeleteI like the sureness, yet not of life as opposed to taking the easy way out
ReplyDeleteVery powerful and moving
Gautami, this is so beautiful...I especially loved these lines:
ReplyDeletePlease retreat.
Do not come back.
I will not embrace you now.
Come later when it is inevitable.
For now, I have to live.
Let me wake up...
So powerful...Thank you!
You've made us think, whether we wanted to or not. I loved these lines:
ReplyDeleteI have to traverse the most difficult of path.
Where there is stimulation, adventure and challenge.
Please retreat.
Do not come back.
I will not embrace you now.
i concur with the colleagues above.
ReplyDeletetruly great stuff!
This is very good, and it resonates for all of us. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on this one. :)
ReplyDeletethe ever present voices in my head....it seems like i spend one third of my life plotting my own death...
ReplyDeleteexcellently captured....
I wasn't sure what you were talking about but now I think it is about ending of a person's life. Maybe the path is difficult at times but we all have to go through it and live.
ReplyDeleteI hope I am not babbling about nonsense here.
This is a thoughtful poem.
Loved your poem but, like Rose, I didn't fully understand what you were talking about until the end. At first, I thought you were talking about change and how you didn't understand who you had become. Still, I am pleased with your 3WW poem. Keep up the good work.
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This is an absolutely stunning piece of writing.
ReplyDeletenice writing! i think my favorite line is "where the mind covets and yet repels."
ReplyDeleteThis is not meant to be apparent right at the begining. Infact, I wrote it so that one gets to know what I am talking about only in the last line.
ReplyDeleteIf it did that, I achieved my goal.
Thanks to all for your comments.!
In my case, you did. Nicely done.
ReplyDeleteStraight to the point yet profound. Good job, Gautami.
ReplyDeleteI think we have all had thoughts like this a time or two... good job bringing this to the light.
ReplyDeleteyour writing is always so mature and thoughtful, thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteA very powerful and moving piece.
ReplyDeleteI cannot take the painless way out.
ReplyDeleteI have to traverse the most difficult of path.
That was my favorite part, but it is all intense and introspective.
Wow this was great! I imagine this to be similar to what a friend of mine's sister was going through as she stuggled for life...they didnt expect her to reach her 10th bday but she hit 15 before her body gave out... :*(
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